This year a song lyric really struck a chord with me. “There was a time when I stood in line for love”. This year I have learned to be who I am and give my opinion. This year I have also put up walls because of something that someone did that had a major effect on my heart. If you knew me freshman year, you knew I held nothing back, I would give and give and give until there was nothing left. I was like that as a sophomore too. I would give pieces of my heart away until one day there was nothing left for me. This year I have become petty and mean and bitter. This year I am moody and more anxious than ever. This year I was hurt by the person everyone warned me to stay away from. I thought they cared about me and I thought they would be there for me like I was there for them. One day they decided I wasn’t worth their time, whether someone else made this choice for them or not is unclear, but it doesn’t matter, I still wasn’t worth their time. This year I have been hurting and people ask me why and I explain to them, I was hurt. They say “I’ve been through worse”. I explain I understand but this hurts for me now. People wrote off my pain this year. I wrote off my pain too. For 6 months I have had strong walls put up protecting me from getting hurt again. Today those walls came crumbling down. I am lucky to have the friends I do. Friends that support me even in my deepest lows. This year I will allow people back in. This year I will be unapologetically myself and will let nothing hold me back. This year I will heal. -Anonymous
